I am 5%

What does s number like 5 represent? It could represent something very good or not so good. But I guess that all depends on your perspective. This number is one I heard from my doctor last week. And I guess I didn't really hear that number I heard the rest:

"Ashliegh, 95% of people at your age trying to conceive would have been successful by now."

It broke my heart when I heard it and I couldn't get those words out of my head. I felt like reality had just slapped me across the face. And it took me a couple days to recover. I felt bad initially because I called a friend in tears right after and bombarded her with the news, but I knew she would understand. She gave me great advice and I am so thankful for her.

In the following days instead of seeing my 5% as gut wrenching I saw it as a challenge. One of which may be great. Here's my thought, God is capable of anything. He really doesn't even need my five percent. But what a great testimony that God is faithful. I am trusting in Him against all odds. Against 95% of what is "suppose to be". I am publicly giving God the opportunity to do a miracle in my life.

"God the five percent is yours. All I have is yours. Thank you for taking this from me. I realize I am not strong enough to carry it myself anymore. I've learned to trust you on a whole new level. Thank you for your provision, your love and most of all your comfort. I love you."

So I ask the question again, what does a number like 5 represent? Like before, it's all a matter of perspective. ;)